whoa...disaster almost strikes

ok, here's what happened: basically, i went to a meeting for class at 8, got back at 1030 and went to bobby's room. he was playing online poker, so i said i'd go back to my room for a bit. i asked him to come with me for some food after he finished playing the two games he was in at that time. he said yes. but i didn't hear from him until 1:30. in that time, he (playing for free because he won a tournament i think) had been up 1800 dollars and then lost it all on one hand where he had three 9's and then the other guy barely scraped out a flush or somethign at the last minute on the last card. so he was upset. i was upset. we had a mini fight in his room, which then turned into a major fight when i got back to my room. lucky for all of you, it happened on AIM so its immortalized here. leaving his room, i said "next time i see you playing poker, i'll know not to make any plans with you". he took this the wrong way, as you can see below:

kingbob320 returned at 2:09:53 AM.
kingbob320: fine..dont bother tommorow
Auto response from CutieCaitie001: out...leave a message after the beep....:-)
CutieCaitie001: what
kingbob320: dont bother seeing me tommorow
kingbob320: this is just like online chess
kingbob320: my alternative
kingbob320: so there is no point
CutieCaitie001: you are def takign this wrong
kingbob320: im in a horrible mood and for u not to wait til i at least felt better to appreciate the content of your words is not good
kingbob320: all u did is fling me into a depressive episode
CutieCaitie001: i just meant that the next time i see your playing poker or pool or whatever it is, i'll know that i need to give you at least 6 hours, not 1
CutieCaitie001: i didn't fling you anywhere
CutieCaitie001: i'm sorry you took it that way
kingbob320: no thats not what u meant
CutieCaitie001: yea it is
kingbob320: thasts how u are salvaging me
kingbob320: im sad
CutieCaitie001: when i come into your room at 1030 like i did today
CutieCaitie001: and i see your playing online
CutieCaitie001: i'll know that i shoudln't bother makign plans for that night
CutieCaitie001: like tonight
kingbob320: no
CutieCaitie001: and i shoudl know that going to your room this late at night is probably also a bad idea
CutieCaitie001: cause you'll want to sleepk
ingbob320: what
CutieCaitie001: and i'll have to go back to my room
kingbob320: in the world are u talking about
kingbob320: you are beyond depressing me
CutieCaitie001: i'm just saying that i hsouldn't expect cuddle time this late at night
CutieCaitie001: i'm not trying to depress you!
kingbob320: i was offering it
CutieCaitie001: i know you offer it, but in reality, its just too late at night for you
CutieCaitie001: i know you try
kingbob320: not now it isnt
CutieCaitie001: but its your bed, its dark, its late...it just goes into sleep mode for you
kingbob320: i needed some emotional comforst
CutieCaitie001: i know you did
CutieCaitie001: and i was planning on giving it to you
CutieCaitie001: but i guess that didn't happen
kingbob320: i love the plan
kingbob320: ...
CutieCaitie001: i can't explain it. other than i started thinking about how i was going over to your room at 2 am on a night when i have school the next day, to see a guy who i wanted to chill with earlier but have been waiting for since 11
CutieCaitie001: i understand you have passions
CutieCaitie001: thats what i love about you
CutieCaitie001: i guess i just need to take that into account more and know that i'm going to have a really small percentage of your time
kingbob320: what?!
CutieCaitie001: well, if you factor in pool, poker, chess and all your friends who you see and stop to talk to, that leaves very little alone time
CutieCaitie001: which is fine, i like that you have a lot of interests
CutieCaitie001: i guess i just need to start some of my own
CutieCaitie001: that way it will be more even between us
CutieCaitie001: cause right now, i give you as close to 100 percent of my time as i can (not including class time)
CutieCaitie001: maybe if i was around less
CutieCaitie001: it would make our together time more special
kingbob320: i feel like this is heading towards a break up. do u know what u are saying and doing
CutieCaitie001: i'm not trying to break up!
CutieCaitie001: i really really like you bobby
kingbob320: bc if u knew your implications
kingbob320: u would stop now
CutieCaitie001: i am stopping
CutieCaitie001: i'm just going to go to the gym or something next time your playing poker
CutieCaitie001: that way i'm not sitting in my room waiting for you to finish
CutieCaitie001: god
CutieCaitie001: i need to sleep.
CutieCaitie001: lets just write this night off as shitty
CutieCaitie001: and forget it
kingbob320: ill tty wed
kingbob320: i need a break
CutieCaitie001: what?
CutieCaitie001: unbelievable.
CutieCaitie001: good luck on your test then
kingbob320: what'?
kingbob320: omg
CutieCaitie001: you said you weren't going to talk to me till wed
CutieCaitie001: so your test is tues
CutieCaitie001: so good luck
CutieCaitie001: i'm sorry if you need a break
CutieCaitie001: thats not what i wanted
CutieCaitie001: like i said
kingbob320: \u are the unbelievable one
CutieCaitie001: i reall ylike you
CutieCaitie001: i meant this whole situation is unbelievable
CutieCaitie001: it wasn't supposed to go like this
CutieCaitie001: i wanted to go over and be there for you
CutieCaitie001: but something got me in a bad mood
CutieCaitie001: so i'm sorry
kingbob320: I still have no freaking idea what u are talking about .... u are concerned more with the principle of the poker over how i feel and my emotional state losing so much
CutieCaitie001: what!?!?!
kingbob320: all i wanted to do was to cuddle and be with you
CutieCaitie001: i understand your sad, but like i said, its not that you actually lost something, it wasn't yours to begin with
CutieCaitie001: thats what i wanted to
kingbob320: it was mine
kingbob320: no
CutieCaitie001: yea it was
kingbob320: it was my money
kingbob320: bc i earned it
CutieCaitie001: fine
kingbob320: and i f-ed that up
CutieCaitie001: no u didn't
CutieCaitie001: there is no way you could have seen it coming like that
CutieCaitie001: you even told me, you had the best hand
kingbob320: and u retorting with ,..i had the best hand
CutieCaitie001: what?
CutieCaitie001: i don't even understand whats going on
kingbob320: the separation stuff
CutieCaitie001: i didn't mean separation stuff
CutieCaitie001: i was just saying that i need to find more hobbies
kingbob320: why would u position that to tell me then
CutieCaitie001: look, i really like you, i might even be falling for you, so i want to stop this convo before we break up cause that is the LAST thing i want
CutieCaitie001: because i'm in the biggest PMS mood EVER and am not being rational
CutieCaitie001: so i'm sorry if i''m being a worthless girlfriend right now, you know this isn't my normal mood
kingbob320: caitie u better be falling for me bc its too late for me
CutieCaitie001: so i'm sorry and i'll make it up to you
CutieCaitie001: i'm so crazy about you bobby i can't even stand it
kingbob320: me too
kingbob320: i need to see u everyday
kingbob320: so u shoved a stake through me when u said that
CutieCaitie001: i didn't mean i wouldn't see you
CutieCaitie001: it wasn't supposed to be a stake
CutieCaitie001: i'm not buffy
CutieCaitie001: i think i'm past the falling part actually
CutieCaitie001: maybe those really were freudian slips
kingbob320: same
kingbob320: but no slips
CutieCaitie001: you def had a slip yesterday
kingbob320: nope i said it by accident
CutieCaitie001: "good night love...um...lover"
CutieCaitie001: liar
kingbob320: ...
CutieCaitie001: that was a slip
kingbob320: not freudian
kingbob320: bc it want unconcious
kingbob320: wasnt
CutieCaitie001: then what was it
kingbob320: it was a conscious slip ..i was thinking about the concept and said it without meaning
kingbob320: to
CutieCaitie001: the concept?
kingbob320: ye
kingbob320: akingbob320: of u'
CutieCaitie001: the concept of me? what?
kingbob320: ..
CutieCaitie001: i don't understand
CutieCaitie001: please explain it
kingbob320: another time
CutieCaitie001: no
CutieCaitie001: you always tell me that
CutieCaitie001: i think its important now
kingbob320: it means im crazy about u
CutieCaitie001: please
CutieCaitie001: how crazy
kingbob320: at the midst
kingbob320: the turning point of no return
CutieCaitie001: the midst of what? what turning point?
kingbob320: ..... the long term emotional attachment romantic turning point
CutieCaitie001: then i hope tonight doesn't negatively effect that turning point
kingbob320: no
CutieCaitie001: i really don't know how it got so out of hand
kingbob320: it didnt
CutieCaitie001: i hate this time of month
CutieCaitie001: i'm sorry
kingbob320: its k
CutieCaitie001: are we ok?
kingbob320: yes
CutieCaitie001: if you had said no, i would have cried for a couple days i think
kingbob320: dont worry
CutieCaitie001: ok
CutieCaitie001: i'll talk to you tomorrow ok?
kingbob320: ok
CutieCaitie001: i have class from 12 to 1, then 2 to 430
kingbob320: gnighgt
CutieCaitie001: good night, sweet dreams

so there you have it. the worst convo ever that turned into a kinda great convo because now i know how he feels.

i think i'm in love with him.