The Ives have it

or whatever the title of the play was.

today bobby took me to see a play at the culbreth theater here on campus. he had to go for class but it was still fun. made better by the fact that he asked me to go too. oh my gawd we're so cultured! haha.

the play actually wasn't that great but bobby and i are hanging out alot and "secretly" dating so its nice to be with him.

i dunno how i feel about sneaking around. i mean, we hang out all the time. but i'm a very pda type of person. and i've never been in this kind of situation before. where i know the guy likes me as much as i like him...but we can't date.

so when i'm with him, i feel like i'm in a relationship, so i reach out for his hand, and he'll hold it...but as soon as we get close to our dorm, he drops it like a hot potato.

i understand why he's doing this and i understand what it would look like to people, but the more i think about it, the more i resent having to put my life on hold for andrew. frankly, i don't think he deserves all the consideration we're giving him.

he broke up with me basically. so why do i have to wait on him...its like i waited on him during our whole relationship and now its just continuing. I CAN'T ESCAPE HIM!!! not to mention that he appears out of no where at the most RANDOM times. like, bobby and i will have been hanging out together all day, building up to a great kiss...when who should show up? andrew! and that of course kills the mood and i'm left kissless. ugh.

off to study buddhism...too bad its just the history and formation of the buddhist tradion...i could use some clarity and enlightenment right about now!