SO CONFLICTED!!!

why is it that stuff like this always happens to me? why is my life so much more melodramatic than everyone else's? i feel like i should be on a sitcom of some kind...of course, for the sake of the viewers i would hope it would be cancelled immediately.

ok...it seems like andrew is constantly keeping me at a distance. no more "i love you". no more make out sessions. no more intimacy. just a few little pecks. to get a decent kiss i have to practically attack him. ridiculous!

and i feel like i'm drifting further and further away from him. and the direction i'm headed isn't good. basically, the more he pushes me away, the more i try to find solice with someone else. ie bobby. he's become my true confidant. i love it. i can call him, tell him whats going on, and he sorts it out. THANK GOD SOMEONE IS SANE! and since he not only talks to me, but to andrew as well, that means he's the only one who truly knows whats going on. therefore, he gives the best advice.

i had decided to give andrew until a week after valentines day to pick up the pace of this relationship. now, i don't mean jumping back to the level we were at. but a nice, long, satisfying make out session would be a fantastic start. and if it doesn't? then i don't know what i'll do...

god, this sucks. i'm too young for this!!!! and why does the only person who is remotely helpful also have to be the most good looking man i've ever seen. wow...i'm in deep shit right now. why can't things go back to the way they were!!!!!!!!!