had another fight tonight. so heartsick. he threatened to break up again. its his favorite threat. then he argues with me and doesn't make sense but is so convinced that he can make himself sound convincing and i can't do it anymore. he wants me to play his game and i can't. i just can't. especially not at 3:30 am.

i can't deal with this now. too upset. need sleep. massive test coming up.

why don't i feel like i get the support that i give out? and how can someone who professes to care so much for me throw out threats like that so easily?